Just Putting it out there...

This is not for everyone, but after you read this, some people will know who i am talking about...so I decided to talk about it right here...on my blog....where I'm "so dramatic"....

I just thought I would like to say how hilarious I think it is that a lot of these people are saying all of these comments about me....it's like they really know who I am. Especially those who I have dated already, saying stuff like...hmm pssh I don't know...im crazy, and all I care about is myself. Wow.....great job you guys...great job. This just comes to show that you don't know me because all of those things that you have said is not true. Sure....maybe my blogs are a little bit dramatic, but I was just showing on what's going on in my mind and what has been going on in the past. Plus...last time I checked....I'm an art student...I'm pretty sure it's ok for me to be dramatic if I want to. And what's up with everyone always saying I am texting every girl I know. I'm so sorry that I cannot talk to my friends....I didn't know it was bad to talk to friends that are girls. Oh, and those of you that say shit about me and I don't even talk to you, you might as well just stop. You don't know me and I don't know you...and I have not said anything about you because I don't know you....so you can just back off. Honestly...it's getting really really retarded. And now, apparently I'm using people just cuz I am horny.....man quit acting like you know me. Whatever I said about people and what I thought about people, that were nice, was not bullshit. I meant that stuff; you think what I did two weeks ago was easy for me? You think it was easy for me to move on? Think again!!!! I have tried explaining it to you in person...what I really thought...and you even agreed meeting with me that next day to talk to in person and you did not respond with when and where you wanted to meet. And you tell me I don't care about you....after you not responding so we can talk in person.....that actually says something to me right there. And if you're gonna agree what everyone else says about me, which are still not true....go ahead...I may have actually cared before, but now, I don't give a fuck!

If you have something to say about me, come say it to my face, I wont be pissed...not at all....I'll just be happy enough that you had enough balls to say it to my face. Now.....just let it out.....

You Only Get One Shot.....

Well, after going through spring break, seeing family, hanging out, taking some ballet classes, seeing friends, here comes the next big mark on my life that I could possibly will not forget. I am leaving for New York on Tuesday to go to the YAGP Job Fair. This is a company audition with companies all over, the United States and Europe, that are looking for dancers. This thing will have hundreds and hundreds of people, since a lot of people have done the competition. To be honest with you, I don't know how to feel; I feel nervous, and I am excited at the same time. Part of me is worried because I have only done three classes haha and I won't be able to do any these next two days before I go up there. It's all right though. I'm pretty sure I will be all right. But....this is when I just have to go out there, and show these directors what I have. Going out there and show my personality...showing them that I am an artist, and that I love my art form. Honest to God, if it wasn't for this art form, I have no idea where I would be in my life right now. Just like what my friend told me...I need to go out there, shut up, and just dance. I know that my family is there cheering for me all the way, even though they all will not be up there with me....but I know I am in their thoughts....same goes to my friends. As Eminem would say, "If you have.....one shot....or one opportunity....to seize everything you have ever wanted..in one moment...would you capture it?...or just let it slip?....."

A Little Spark

So it's been a while since I've last been on here. Schools been....school. tired, stressed, and just workin workin workin it. been doing auditions and so far they have been going really good so far. its really stressful at the same time, but hey, I never thought it was going to be easy. I found out I am doing an audition in New York that will have every single leading director from companies around the world. After hearing that, I was so stoked. I am, also, scared because this is a one shot opportunity. Of course I won't be scared once I just do the audition, but yea, you get what I'm saying. I am really happy though. Haha every now and then I think about the time when I was 8 years old and I watched my first ballet and saw a professional do something incredible; I was back stage I brought my mom out back and said "Mama......that's going to be me one day...." I cry every time I think about that.

I feel like everything is going good though; dance has been really awesome, Winter Dance has been kicking my ass, but that's always going to happen I enjoy it no matter how hard it is, auditions are almost over and soon I'll find where my career path takes me, and for my high school life.....trying to be with this girl......she's different, but in a good way. I'm still getting to know her, but she's a lot of fun to hang out with. She is one of those people I can tell her how I feel and not feel uncomfortable about it. I'm enjoying hanging out with her and it's been so much fun when I do...every single second I hang out with her.....i just forget about my stress or what is worrying me and just makes me happy and always smile....


Well.....still have some things to do this term......let's get to work and see what happens........