The Moment I've Waited For

Tonight I just saw a movie that I have been waiting for to see in months. I saw the movie Mao's Last Dancer. ......I have never seen a movie with so much power in my life. It actually gave me chills after seeing the movie. It made me realize that I thought I had it bad, but after seeing that movie, I realized what I have gone through is nothing compared to what Li Cunxin has gone through. I don't know how I would be with myself if I had to go through all the situations he was in. People looked at me weird like "why is he saying this? It's just a movie." That's fine. I can understand why you're saying it. But this movie had showed me that you shouldn't give up; no matter how you go through it and how hard it is at times, you still believe in yourself and dance from your heart. Dreams do come true. I saw this movie because it had my art, and it showed what the Chinese have to go through to become ballet dancers. ......I have never cried over something like this before.....just goes to show how much i really care and appreciate the art form of ballet...

whoa..........

Well......I'm back in school. It's good to be back. I've missed everyone. Good god am I going to cry after this year is over. I miss my family of course, but they always want me to be happy as usual so gotta keep going. I know I keep saying this, and I'm sorry to bug people, but 3 years going by this fast.....I just can't believe it. Being a senior though.......it feels so good. I felt like I've accomplished what I have done and what I have came here for and continuing to work on it and keep going toward the path I want to go to. One of the best things in my life was coming to this school. This place has showed me and gave me an experience I probably would have never gotten if I stayed at home. It showed me how to appreciate the work of dance physically, mentally, and emotionally. If it wasn't for this place, god knows where I would be right now in ballet. I would not know near half the things I learned here if I stayed at home at my old studio and going to start my career. However, there is two little things left that I gotta do before I leave here and graduate and move on. One is, obviously, finish school, and the second.....well.......I don't know if I can do because I get scared in these kinds of situations.......but I hope soon that the fear will no longer be there after this year..........