Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I'm almost done in Houston. Wow....it happened so fast. I can't believe it. Chances are I'll probably cry. I'm already depressed in a way though. Rehearsals haven't gone the way I wanted them to be, some things in my life are just screwing me over, the way I'm dancing right now I'm not happy with it (could be I'm tired though), and on top of all that, my teacher said I did not improve at all the past year. That really surprised me and just makes me very concerned. I've never felt this way before in my entire life. I don't want to feel this way because I know it just brings me down and it just makes everything worse, but it's so hard; especially with what I want to do. Is God trying to tell me something? Is he trying to show me something? Is he trying to show me that everything I'm worried about is really nothing to be worried about or is it just the way my life is going to be?.........who knows?
Saturday, July 10, 2010
What can I say......welcome back to Houston. Same old hot weather, but you know....it beats home. I turned 18 not too long ago and that's a scary thing for me. It just made me realize that I think I just wasted all of my teenage years. Oh well....can't turn around and do anything about it, I guess. Houston is even harder than it was last year, which I like. The teachers are on my ass even more than last year. This place finally helped me understand that I have to take everything for granted; I have to take the challenge and at least try and not sit there. I've felt like I've wasted a lot of my training.....I know that is not true, but that's just what it feels like with me. Seeing all of my friends, which I love, even makes me more sad. Some I will stay in touch with, and most I probably won't see ever again. I mean my old class just graduated and I will probably never see them ever again. My freshmen class I have hardly seen and they will graduate along with me.....so......I guess this is what people have been saying when they say live life to the fullest. I guess I better make this worth it before I evolve into a man and live on my own....... :(